I really like your gumption and your get up and go, but it stinks on Norman Bates doing his dead mother's bidding. My advice, dial it back a notch. You aren't going to be to be the one person who shines this shoe, know what I mean, mate? That's an awful lot of pressure to put on yourself. So dial it back it from meth head to simply twitchy and you might get get somewhere. Constructive criticism out.